I just smiled

I have to say I'm fine even I'm not okay. Frankly, I thought of finding a place with no one and lock myself there that day until I totally feel better. If there is a machine for me to delete or remove some part of my memories, I do wish to remove that part from my mind, I'm sorry that I can't stop thinking of it, I know it very well how bad I've done, people can cheat me but I can't cheat on myself somehow. :(  I know that I'm so negative-minded sometimes. :(




Saw this message early in the morning from my bestie:-

Cookie Monster:: Nana...hope you really did manage to relieve the hellish tension during our picnic. Don't you feel ashamed of the mistake, no one was laughing or judging at you, instead, they were worried by you...so don't ever bury yourself with the darkness again and let it control your mind. Fill up the hole with improvement next time. "The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it." We cannot let the past cloud our perception of the future, so peace out!

*I promised not to hide myself in dark, not to think of it and TRY not to think in negative way any more next time, cookie monster* ♥


I'm sorry for letting you all worry about me. :(


Thanks dad and mummy for the concern as well, and thanks mummy for comforting me. Your words and advices I will keep in mind and heart forever. *hugss*  ♥


And


Thanks a lot friends for the concern and comfort. I'm touched by the messages and concerns you all gave me. :'(


And you, thanks for brighten up my day and everything you gave me. :') Deeply appreciate it. :') Courage and give me support as always. *cry* 
Thanks dear for always ready to be there for me, listen from me and be my shoulder. ♥
Glad to have you in my life. ♥


Dear friends,

I can't explain to you
How much you mean to me
If it weren't for you

I can't imagine
Where I'd even be
You've made me laugh and smile
More than I can bear
You've helped me through the hardest times
When I was in despair
You kept me up when I was down
And I was feeling blue
You helped me turn my life around
And become somebody new
Thanks a lot friends for everything

:')

FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE PEEING ON YOURSELF. EVERYONE CAN SEE IT, BUT ONLY YOU GET THE WARM FEELING THAT IT BRINGS.  :)






-Loves-
Christina

Tight Schedule T_T

Have been sacrificed my sleeping time for almost 3 days long, rush for two assignments which is going to submit soon. For me, it was a long and tiring week to go. I get frustrated easily for this while. A group work is supposed to be done with a group of members, everyone has the responsibility to put in some efforts so that it can be done sooner and easier, but not solo, that's why I prefer individual work sometimes.


Well, at least they did help me some at the end, just some cannot be used. I do not wish to do useless stuff since I have spent a lot of my times and seriously I didn't even get an enough sleep, I do hope that the marks wouldn't disappoint me, that's worth enough. Gahhh, still got another two assignments wait for me to complete, fuhhh, I'm real tired. T__T I wish I can work like a non-stop robot.
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Went for lunch with friends at Terminal 5 after a meeting on Telematch thingy. Yea, a romantic restaurant with those nice lightings and decorations. It was my second time been there this year. :)


Of course I didn't miss to take some photos there. :D

This was my food. :) Jawa Seafood Soup. :) which cost RM 8.90.


Nice but it is a bit salty. :) *RATE: 7/10*

Tried this corns with seaweed flavour (my friend's favorite) few days ago at Hua Lee. :) Niceee! *RATE 9/10*

What a tiring week. *yawning* 

Well, hope you all have a wonderful Sunday and Happy Labour's day. :D

-Loves-

Christina

Settle down

I sit still in this room, on a desk,
because I know my view is limited.
Watching at darkness,
feel the silence of wind.
Only street lights can be seen,
since voices are yet to be traveled over ears.
I love this scene.

Hopefully world apart is yet to be happened,
there are things I want to make sure
before I'm ready to go.
I should need to hope more at such moment, 
my current strength is not affordable to hold me tight,
please support me.


How does bitterness actually causing the difficulties from minimizing the gap between itself and joy at the other end?
Despite of feeling unsafe for an answer,
let me wander around while my mind never stop thinking.
Allow me to have some moment for day-dream,
it will not take a long time.


Together, we are here, linked,
on the same base, under the same galaxy,
we are close for being able to witness the same horoscopes,
yet far since we cannot get everyone's angle into eyes.
I feel that it is not yet the time to accept something new,
but may have a farewell with the previous part in life.



Be happy,
Christina

Ups and downs in my life

There are a lot of things stuck in the middle of my mind. I'm so confused. And for you, I'm really sorry for the answer. Please, I don't want you to treat me good anyway. Well, I know deep in my heart that you are good to me, but I'm sorry for that, I just don't want you to spend too much time on me which will never turn you an answer at the end. As I have told you everything clearly before that. 

Here, I want to thanks and apologize to you. We can still remain in the distance of friend but not exceed our friendship. I appreciated everything you have done, your care and your concern. Doubtless, and frankly, I have try to escape from you, I don't feel like getting close with you or in another words I don't want to get in any contact with you for this while until you have fully give up. So, please don't stay close with me while I have go away from you or else you will make me even hate you. Well, it's true though when you told me that I can't do anything for stopping you no matter what reasons or how I have pushed you away. Anyway, I have no right to stop you either. Just please don't entangle me around. I need some spaces for my own though. *I will really hate you if you keep on doing something over me.*

*I even think of closing up myself in my own room every time once I finished my lesson in order not to bump into you anywhere around college compound.*

*I dislike people touch or see my things without permission!*

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Had a very long chat with a bestie of mine in my room yesterday night. She wasn't in mood. Yea, before that, she did ask me for the reason why am I so emo recently but I.... There's complicated. *she is always the one who listen to my words. :') Appreciate much!*  Accompany her until 12midnight like that, at least she knows some of the reasons why am I so emo these few days. Well, go into a little bit of the story, there is absolutely blameless. Just the matter how you solve the problem. Things will never always behave what you want it to be, life has ups and downs for sure, so never expect things will go in a good way all the time.

*Thanks a lot, Cookie Monster. :') Even though you may not fully know the reason why I'm very down, but you have made me laugh out loud and shout out loud. Thanks for everything. :')*

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Suddenly received a text from an unknown number yesterday night, who is very annoying. He keeps on sending the text for me even though I have no reply any of it. Missed call for one second just to gain for my attention. It's kinda annoying when he keeps on missed call for one second. Sending text not logic at all. I get scared with this after a few texts from him. Gooosshhh, can you stop disturbing my life. I need a peaceful life as well. A friend of mine help me to call him but he didn't answer the phone call. Don't you think that it's scary? What more, he said he's now studying in the same college as me. My goodness! Anyway, thanks a lot for my friends who concern me about this! *I'm touched*  T__T

-Loves-
Christina

Sarah Whatmore - Seven Stories

Love this song. But I can't find it in youtube. Sobbiiee T_T How come?
Tiptoe around you 在你周围踮着脚尖
Make that smile worth my while  让那笑容值得等待

Again is this the end of time  时间又到了吗
A stranger looked at me today  今天有陌生人看了我一眼

And now I turn my head  现在我转过头

Is it easier for me to walk that way   走另一边，是不是比较好
And now I lose myself  现在我迷失了自己

‘cos I don’t know who to be  因为我不知道要做哪一个我

Nothing’s what it seems  看到的似乎和事实不相符
What if I told you I  如果我告诉你

was seven stories high  我站在七楼高，战战兢兢

Would you even reach for me   你会伸手给我吗

Keep pulling me back  一直拉我回

Pulling me back from  一直拉我回

All the things we used to be  我们曾经拥有的一切

Moments gone too easily  时间过得太快

Never know it’s hard to keep you  从来都不知道要留你这么难

Pulling me back, pulling me back from you  一直拉我，一直从你那里拉我回去
So how do I make you?  那我该怎么做?
Two hands up I admit   我把双手举起，承认

I’m still waiting for you  我还在等你

To open up and let me in  等你坦白，让我走进
I’ll run your race to the end  我会和你跑到最后

I’ve got my running shoes on  我已经把运动鞋都穿上了

Tell me where the start begins  告诉我，从哪里开始
And now I lose myself  现在我迷失了自己

‘cos I don’t know where to be  因为我不知道要去哪里

Nothing’s what it seems  看到的似乎和事实不相符
What if I told you I  如果我告诉你

was seven stories high  我站在七楼高，战战兢兢

Would you even, for me  你会伸手给我吗

Keep pulling me back  一直拉我回

Pulling me back from  一直拉我回

All the things we used to be  从我们曾经拥有的一切

Moments gone too easily  时间过得太快

Never know it’s hard to keep you  从来都不知道要留你这么难

Pulling me back, pulling me back from you  一直拉我，一直从你那里拉我回去
So how do I make you?  那我该怎么做？
‘Cos you say what you say  因为你说你想说的

And you do what you do  你做你想做的

And that’s the last thing I would do  却是我最不想做的
What if I told you I  如果我告诉你

was seven stories high  我站在七楼高，战战兢兢

Would you even reach for me  你会伸手给我吗

Keep pulling me back  一直拉我回

Pulling me back from  一直拉我回

All the things we used to be  从我们曾经拥有的一切

Moments gone too easily  时间过得太快

Never know it’s hard to keep you  从来都不知道要留你这么难

Pulling me back, pulling me back from you  一直拉我，一直从你那里拉我回去
So how do I make you?  那我该怎么做?
If I can’t break through  如果我不可以冲破这障碍



-Loves-
Christina

Attitude

"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude."

Loves
Christina